what if this time I say yes, what if next time you come over and it starts getting heated that i just let it happen? i want to be with you, i want to say yea, he’s my boyfriend but you’re to blind to see, how good we could be together :)<3 were both broken but i think together we can help the other be whole. so please take time out of your day to think about me. Cause you run through my mind and it’s nothing but smiles you make me laugh, cause me to think twice about everything, we just fit right and i know you care about me and i care about you but you’re not making the effort here, you being scared to give away your “prospects” and give this thing we have a fighting chance.
starting something new.
Im going and try to start something new, if it works idk but im going to try. try to write about something everyday! a letter, a quote something. something to get my mind of things to do something other then mop around and be sad!
Day #1
kayyy soo it’s like 12:31am on a Saturday in October and im at home in my bed all alone! bored out of mind and no where near the point of sleep. and I wonder how you can think 50 different things at one time! like urgg! my mind is fucked right now and i dont know what i’m doing, im a mess, a real fucking mess and i can’t handle it! i think that’s about it.!for tonight.
Lady Tip #135
When a the guy you like starts to open up to you and talk about his problems and his ex girlfriends, in that moment you start to become a best friend rather then a love interest so, stop trying to impress him and stop trying to make him you like him back. It’s very hard for guys to trust someone with their sorrows so, don’t take him for granted or think that all your plans are messed up because you need to be happy that he’s still in your life. And if your there for every time he needs to talk, and one day you call his name when your down no doubt that he’ll be right there to pick you up your feet as you did for him. That’s where it turns from a future relationship to life long friendship. <3
unwanted
ive been feeling so unwanted like i dont really matter. i hate being alone. i hate it. it scares me, like no one would even notice that im dead. this may seem crazy but its how i feel. you say your still here, but are you really! i need you to walk into my life, cause i need you the most right now and all you want to do is push me away. your in love with someone else, past love. but whatever happened to happiness? what ever happened to letting something or someone good into your heart. We’ve got a good thing going on. and yeah your screwed up and youve had a rough life but it doesnt matter to me. i can deal with that shit i can make you happy i can make you feel proud of your self. you just dont see it. forbidden love is what we have but i want it to be real. i want you to hold me and tell me im going to be okay. i want you to promise me to never hurt me and treat me like im a lady not a prize. i want to hear all your secrets. i want to stop feeling unwanted. i need you and you need me. you need a change, im right here with open arms and all you are is a closed locked up tight book. and one day i hope to crack you open and really show you what living is.
the a-z’s of me.
A - Available: yepp :)
B - Best Friend: karla, jessica,ben
C - Crush: hes got my heart.
D - Dad’s Name: his name is raymond.:)
E - Easiest Person To Talk To: my mom and karla.
F - Favorite Band: they have to have good lyrics that i can relate to and alot of different beats and rythms not all the same songs.
G - Gummy Bears Or Worms: gummy worms they’re just more yummy
H - Hometown: the oh so cold town of Barrie Ontario
I - Instrument: a little bit of guitair and pianno.
J - Job: i’m currently searching for one. nobody is hiring unfortunately.
K - Kids: not for a long time.
L - Longest Car Ride: to picton Ontario 8hrs!
M - Milk Flavor: soy
N - Number Of Siblings: one :) sister !
O - One Wish: to not die alone.
P - Phobias: burning to death, dying alone, fishflys(odd i know but terrified) and loosing everything i worked hard for.
Q - Favorite Quote: i have quite a few but this one seems to stand out in my mind,”Too postitive to be doubtful, too optomistic to be fearful & too determined to be defeated.”
R- oops deleted it haha :)
S - Song You Last Heard: body lanuage - jesse mcCartney
T - Time You Woke Up: 9:00 am cause i have alot of things to do
U - Unknown Fact About Me: i really dwell on what peopl esay about me and sometimes it hurts so much what they say that i cry over it.!
V - Vegetable: sweet potatoes.
W - Worst Habits: forgetting where i out things after i just had it like 30 secs ago aka forgetfulness.
X - X-Rays You’ve Had: ive had one of my face dont know what for but i did lol :)
Y - Your Favorite Food: pasta with garlic bread :)! yumm
Z - Zodiac Sign: aquarious :) janurary baby (L)!
asianxsensation:kerileighchan:jaysmile:vajaina:cityyandcolour:(via fearlessfight)
I watched this … all the time …oh !
